This topic has been on my mind from past few months and I have
been feeling strongly to write about it. For much reason – first and foremost reason
for my gratitude to Reiki and different healing energies for giving me a
different perspective of life.
I
keep receiving quite a few queries on Reiki – most frequently asked being “How
should I prepare myself for Reiki” or say “How do I know I am ready for it?”
and “Does being attuned help us not having any problem in life?” Well that’s the reason for me writing this. It’s
my journey! And how it happened is important.
I
would start with the belief “through crack enters light (say wisdom)”
Ok,
let me share my journey. It started in a
manner which was a little strange, probably all good things start with some
kind of trauma or say some kind of bad experience (reminds me of the Death card
from Tarot deck) – I was going through a break up and I was wondering what to
do! Am sure most of us have gone through some or other separation, some of us
keep them under the wrap and some of us express it openly with courage. I do
the later. And there is no shame! Each and every event is here to teach us
something. Learn the lesson, move on. Life is as simple as this! However it
took some time for me to learn that.
So,
like many other broken-heart people I was kind of puzzled and somehow lost! Kind
of desperate to patch up. In despair as well.
Don’t remember how but I found someone who is a Reiki Master and
Holistic healer – almost 8 years back! That time I was not aware of Reiki or
any kind of healing. However, I reached there. He was the first person
introducing me to Reiki. No, i was not attuned to Reiki however he had always given
me his valuable time and his earns to listen to my problems, be it anything. I got
Reiki healing as well. It has been a
beautiful relationship since then. I sometimes used to attend his meditation
classes where I started getting to know about Reiki, Chakras, Aura and various
other things. However due to some or other reason I could not get attuned to
Reiki. I was member of some Reiki group online as well; members there also
helped me with distance healing and guided me. I was still though not very
clear on what Reiki is and how it’s going to help me! However, i continued my
journey with faith.
Time
passed by! I had to shift to another city. Well, that I consider being quite a
turning point in my life. I was in between jobs. I was travelling. I was a
little worried financially as well. However I have always been blessed with
some very supportive friends who stood by me under all circumstances. So I was
less burdened.
My
shifting to the new city was quite smooth. Everything was taken-care by the
company who recruited me. However, my journey started after shifting. A
completely new city it was for me, Bangalore. The language became a problem
till some extent. I knew absolutely no one in the city, and the people I
thought I had known became absolute strangers. Have started to dislike many things,
was absolutely under stress and thought to leave the city and move back to my
old city as I thought everything was going against me in the new city. My
friends from Delhi had been my biggest strength then also. Being away, they
were with me each and every moment. We have always been in touch, not even a
single moment I faced when they were not with me. So in the new city I was not
really alone, virtually together.
And
gradually I started enjoying my own company; it was another big learning for
me. I kept asking myself, why I am here in the new city? Almost alone without
friends, family! No I didn't really get the answer immediately why I was there!
I got it gradually.
When
we become comfortable in our own company, we start to introspect and
rediscovering ourselves – who we really are. Being in the new city gave me
enough time to spend to myself, reading, writing and knowing what I want. I
started to travel solo, more frequently, started preparing new cuisine and
stated reading again. As I child also I used to love reading. I was back with
my hobbies.
As I
was not going through a very happy and smooth time, and all I wanted was to heal the situation I started looking for a way out! That was the time I
ended up ( or say stared my new journey) with Reiki. I found my Reiki teacher
and another holistic healer. Both happened with me simultaneously. I went my
healer for Theta healing and I went to my Reiki master for my level 1
attunement. The change started there.
So
here am going to answer one of the questions that many people asked me, does
Reiki help eliminating the problem or tough situation? My answer, NO. Reiki and
any other healing practises guide us to see the entire situation in a new
perspective. We see the tough situation
as an opportunity to learn. I started having much more patience, much more
compassion, unconditional love and much more faith, less judgement and less
doubt. My relationship improved gradually with many. I gradually have developed
many healthy habits. I started having more vegetarian food, less unhealthy food
and beverages. My going out and partying out became less frequent. Suddenly
fair weather friends stopped showing off. I was surrounding by less people then
– however the people I was surrounded by were people who loved me
unconditionally and were my true well wishers. I started getting in touch with
people from the healing field – somehow I have started having my own comfort
zone with like-minded people. Not everyone does Reiki – some practises
Buddhism, some Angel Therapy or something else. However the common factor was
love and compassion.
So
here comes my second answer, so how did I prepare myself for Reiki? My answer,
I didn’t really prepare anything I reached there when I was supposed to be
there. My Reiki level 1 happened and then happened Reiki level 2 and finally I
have done Reiki Master Level.
My
Reiki Teacher was also asked “how would I know if am ready for Reiki certain
level?” she answered “if you have reached my place today, you are ready for
Reiki certain level”
For
me it was one point connecting to another. Simultaneously I started getting
drawn to various inspiring books! And all of a sudden, books on Angels. Being a
Hindu, no family member or friend discussed on angels with me before. Surfing through
net, unknowingly I found Doreen’s books and I started reading one by one. It
didn’t just stop there. I was drawn to Angel Oracle cards as well, I started
reading for myself or close friends on my intuition. Started having some of my
favourite Decks! When I was looking for a angel therapy course, one fine day I
heard in Radio one Angel therapy workshop in Bangalore! That’s what I was
waiting for so quite obviously I jumped at it and enrolled myself. I have done
quite a few similar workshops which helped me having a better understanding! Probably
that’s what I call synchronicity – meeting like-minded people, drawn to books
and workshops which help me developing my interest and knowledge in this field.
Coming
back to where I started my relationship. So did I get him back? No. I didn't.
Then how did Reiki and other healing energies help me? Eventually I could
forgive him. Healing starts when you accept the situation and forgive.
Forgiving is quite a big thing and it indeed need courage! Rather than forgiving
him, I choose to forgive myself first. I let go the guilt, I let go the need of
chasing him and chasing love, I let go the need of having a guy. Rather I fell
in love with things I love say reading, music, movies, travelling and
photography. And one day when I looked back, I realized he (my ex) was just a
medium for pushing me where I am today and indeed am a much evolved person
today. He was the way for me to reach Reiki and other healing methods. Imagine
being in a happy relationship, being settled with him, I would probably not
been able to be where I am today. I finally thanked him for bringing a better
me! Or say finding another side of me.
And
one day, we spoke. All bitterness, rudeness disappeared. He spoke with much
love, compassion and good intention. He apologized and we realized both of us
eventually had forgiven each other. We closed the chapter wishing each other a
happy life! Say sweet ending!
So
in a nutshell, I can say Reiki has been my journey. Not the destination. Since
am still on my journey, I am not sure what the destination is. Probably to find
out my higher self towards more healing and helping them who are in need. Yes,
most of us need healing – more and deeper understanding of life rather than
cribbing and complaining over every difficult situation. So, I can wrap up how
it helped me:
- I have become much calmer person than I was before. Situation, people or anything doesn’t really worry me. I still have difficult situation and I know I will be taken care of!
- In every difficult situation or when I come across difficult people, I just ask myself what lesson am I supposed to learn here? Keep the intention right, the answer will eventually come!
- I don’t rush into things. I know, things will eventually happen. However, it will happen when the time is right. Like I was attuned to Reiki much after I got to know about Reiki.
- I have realized no one is really a bad person. Everyone is here having their own journey and teaching us something. So i don’t curse any one anymore. I send love, I thank everyone and I move on.
- I have quite detached. It doesn’t mean being indifferent. It only means being compassionate without encouraging drama. I don’t encourage drama!
- I have learnt to love and accept own self first. Most of us or say all of us wait for other’s approval. We try really hard to be approved by family, friends, teachers, partners or society! What about the authentic self? The way we are supposed to be? Probably sometime soon I will write another article on my journey on self love!
- I have created a protection wall for myself. I no more let others to insult me! I don’t need their approval! Be it anyone. I am perfectly fine the way I am!
- I have become less tolerant to non sense.
- I have more faith.
- Now I know I attract only those people who will help me enhancing my journey into a richer one!
- I have truly started appreciating and have started attitude of gratitude meaning being thankful not because someone has asked me to do so but because I am blessed enough to be thankful.
- I can enjoy just being! I mean can enjoy in the very present moment. I don’t rush to the past or worry about future! I have seen most of us are so busy either in past or in future we forget that we belong to the past!
- I have learnt to be patience.
- I have learnt to let go (most of us find it very difficult, we hold on to things too tight without the need of holding it too tight)
These are very basic things which we either take for granted or ignore. And these are the things which really help us growing.
I
thank everyone whom I have come across in my journey and whom I will come
across. To mention a few names whom I can’t really afford to miss, I thank my
parents and brother for their support, I thank Dr Jarrel who introduced me to
Reiki and who has been there for me always with unconditional love and support,
I thank my soul friends Kalpana, Marisha, Richa, Barnali, Munmun, Sridhar for
their unconditional love – they completely stood by me no matter what! I thank
Shweita, my soul sister for her guidance almost anytime I needed. I thank
Ashwita for being my Reiki Master and guiding me whenever I needed, I thank
Sushmita for my Theta Healer and I thank Ananya for being my Reiki teacher for
Reiki Master Level. And many other people who taught me something or other
through various situations!
P.S.
It’s my journey that I have shared. You might have a different view point,
which is completely Ok!
