Rain

Sometime life seems like a fairy tale.Like it seems to be so at this moment to me. 

 Monsoon has come to West Bengal, its raining and raining since morning through out the day. I always love the rain during night.It seems the earth is being blessed with small sparkling diamonds from someone sitting beyond the sky...Today when I got up,I could see each and every tree so fresh and rain water was dripping from the green leaves. Don't know what I have been dreaming of the whole night but even when I'm not sleeping,life seems like a pink dream with the family beside - absolutely no tension,no worry for the next moment,not a single curse for anyone - life is a cosy dream.  Since childhood monsoon takes me to a different world, a world of imagination,dream & fantasy. Once upon a time I used to dream of walking beside the sea shore at night- the waves touching my feet and when it's drizzling - when moon is peeping from theclounds, such a nice dream it was and I still love this dream. Then imagine a cup of masala tea and pakoras in the morning sitting at your varanda when you have a huge garden - squirrel running all over, birds chirping, and the smell of the soil.....I find it heavenly. My place is full of different trees - giant trees to the most tiny ones. I can hear them giggling and playing with the rain,as some friends are meeting their old buddy after a long time.

 Its fun to have a umbrella and yet to get drench...the mad breeze doesnt follow any direction, it may blow your soul from anywhere so unexpectedly....

During my school time we used to get summer holiday just when monsoon used to enter the town...it was great fun to close the umbrella and hug the rain,feel the rain and come home walking slowly to longer experience of rain water....So much used to think about 'Meghdoot' seemed the dark cloud was reading my mind and may search my soul mate & convey the poem of my soul,strange but true.

I wish it rains all the time, it soothe the dried soul & keep them alive to dream absurd. Life is dead without absurd and impossible dreams....and Rain can keep them alive,I'm sure.

Flash back - college days

Its been few years and the city remains the same...

The city is known as the City of Joy...Kolkata.The moment i stepped in Howrah station I could easily fly back down the memory lane, nothing much has changed,its the same, the same busy people,the hawkers,the eager relatives waiting for their their loved ones to come out of the trains...

My favourite Howrah bridge, the ghats and so many other things...I spent the years which were full of dreams,fantasy,hope and endless energy.Each corner of the city has so many beautiful memories of the most beautiful days of my life. If I start writing about them, I may never be able to stop...

The best part was, an evening when I met my best buddy Ammu...she is my college pal and even after so many years we are friends. And the most surprising thing I discover, the time is no more the same but the feelings we had for each other 8 years back are the same.I was moved by this very fact! In this fast changing world if someone feels the same for you even after 8 years is really amazing. 

College days are the days when one dreams even with an open eyes...we too used to do the same.We had a gang..full of fun and we were good at studies too...Could not meet other pals due to lack of time but yes...connected another partner of our craze and found her the same too.

I realized those days were so pure, we were so prompt to help each other any time...without expecting anything in return.Everything was filled with unique fun - be it having gol gappas in front of college gate or sit and chat at Dhakuria lake or go for shopping even for 10 bucks or reading story books at library or attending psycho classes....

I must say those psycho practical classes were fun in spite of having some strict teachers. We did a great deal of manipulation to score better marks in practical & studies some fat books too. 

Making planes and flying them in English class ( where attendance was maximum as 2/3 other stream used to join us) was fun.. It was a girls college so...no fun looking at guys so we used to have fun deciding who was the sexiest girl or homely girl among the lot.It was fun too.

I still remember, there was no shopping mall that time,only Emami shopping place...(forgot the exact name) and Landmark was a hip hop place to be in so we used to walk & used to listen  to songs,read books there. We never used to hesitate singing out loud even on the road...one of the favourite track was .."Raat ka nasha abhi aankh se gaya nahi.." from the movie Ashoka. Even sitting at metro station platform it was fun staring at guys,giggling and singing without even looking at guys!!

Ammu and I used to be a little more close...we celebrated Valentine's day together watching Raaz at some movie hall at Esplanade... a horror movie on the day of love...well the whole class was present that day for the same movie and same show...we realized that during the interval.

We laughed together even in some silly reason..we cried and offered shoulders every time we needed....and stood by each other in hard times...

I met her after few years but both of us possess the same madness,smile,energy and dreams that we had 8 years ago...may be hidden and may burst out when getting the same spark.

True, life is dull if it doesn't have friends with same madness,passion,energy....friends are not those who are calculative but those who do feel the same as you do and even they don't they do respect what you feel....

I loved rain, i loved the breeze, i loved the Dhakuria lake, the metro and so many other things...I love the imagination I had that time...I love the energy and hope I had that time... I miss them.

I could feel those 'never say no' & 'never die' moments being in Kolkata and being with Ammu.

Happiness...

We usually find happiness dont know where all but if we look properly its everywhere.we miss findind it. I wont say much about it because I myself keep complaining about it,I most of the time fail to find happiness.

Today after a long time,may be for some time,it seems life has taken some fresh air in my life,i felt like standing in my terrace and dance and sing some song...sounds funny but i am capable of doing all kind of madness.

I have taken a break,Im at home and I am doing what I wanted to do,being with my family,sleeping,eating and lazying around. Life seems so beautiful. No hurry to find a job. I know as soon as I get one,life will again be the same,very much routinized,so I am just enjoying. Here most of my (actually All) friends got married long back. But whenever I come home I without a fail meet my childhood freind. We have been friend for 23 years now. We met when we started walking and talking, then we started going to school together. It was fun.We used to play together and when we grew up we used to walk together towards gol gappa stalls or the market to buy eve silly things like a 2RS. pen - but it was fun.

Then I went out for higher studies and job, she remained here.But whenever I used to come home,without a fail we used to meet and walk and chat. Then 3 years ago I got to know that she would be getting married. Well,many of my friends got married but I never had that exitement.But with this friend I felt so different, she was someone who was not my best friend but a steady friend, since childhood even before our parents enrolled our names in nursery!!!

Now I got to know that she is going to give birth to a baby...wow!!I actually am running short of expression and words to say narrate that feeling.It was so pure form of happiness. So today I went to see her, I felt great. I still ws trying to connect this would be mom with the small kid i first met and with whom I used to play,time moves so fast. Its not quite long ago when we used to go out in the evening and our best hang out place used to be the local railway station. we used to sit there - very quiet ambience, peaceful - its not a busy urban place so...we used to enjoy now she has become a lady who is going to give birth to another wonderful creation. Then the same cycle will continue, the small kid will grow up and may be he/ she will meet some friend whom he/she will start going tp school,playing together....The feeling is so wonderful.I feel more responsible now.

On the way to her place, I met another friend of mine, he and his wife both are my friends with whom I had some great moments during my college days. Well, now he is a proud father of a 3 days old son!!! Wow...seems happiness is all around the corner. Hope,happiness,a new generation is on the way....

And when I reached home, I received one unexpected call from one of my best pals.After a long time we have spoken.Now I had no word.I just am happy and thankful to God for so many good things in a day.

A comment from a stranger made my day!!!

A more relaxed Sunday. Though scorching heat made me a little low. So I canceled my favourite time pass - to travel long in bus. Today I wanted to go to Chandni Chawk or some place in Old Delhi but seeing the Sun frowning at me, I didn't dare to go out and explore some part of old Delhi. But thankfully I am blessed with some friends, no matter how the weather is, we just need to catch up to have fun even in such hot summer or even in coldest winter night. Trust me, nothing can be better than having like minded buddies around with whom you can be yourself. So it was silly jokes,laughter and even serious guidance. But something beyond these made my day (can I call it Evening?)

Well, I had to withdraw some money from my favourite bank and went there. The ATM had 3 machines and I saw the customers struggling with them. As soon as I entered a small sweet kid showed a very kind gesture by telling me " Didi, the machine does not have money.Mummy is trying for so long" then his Mummy too informed that its been few minutes that all the customers are trying hard but the machines seem to have no cash in it. Well, I was supposed to leave but thought to give it a try. The customers who had been trying all the three machines, helped me to use any of the machine I wanted , they left with a sigh. I tried one and thankfully the machine gave me the required amount. The kid and his mummy was still standing there and trying other machines. They saw me successfully withdrawing money, they again tried the other machine and this time they too successfully could withdraw the amount.

Well,no big deal. There was no satellite problem though some problem was there which made people not to withdraw money. But the lady got so happy and excited that she started saying 'hey young lady, you are so lucky for us. As soon as you enter the machine started working" not only to me, she went out and started telling this to everyone that how lucky I was for all the customers who were trying so hard for so long to withdraw some money.

Ohh,I was amazed and taken aback. I felt so good, I felt her words to be magic. I didn't know her so did she. But see, I ended up feeling so good. Genuine compliment comes very rare.People may talk good about me not because they really mean it but because ... there can be so many reason, better not to discuss.

I dont remember when the last time I receive a genuine compliment. I usually dont take compliments too seriously. Yes I love spreading happiness, confidence and positivity whom so ever I feel important in my life but such unexpected compliment is something I will forever remember. Its so lucky to be called lucky for someone.