Sunday Shopping...

Its a long weekend.Dont like long weekend anymore.At the same time dont like going to office either.Dont know what exactly I want but for sure I want some open sky,some space to breath freely and lots of colours. Life has been so monotonous. Now over weekend I prefer spending my time on bed,chatting,watching TV or simply reading books.Of Late I am reading Almost Single.Few pages that I have successfully read in 2 weeks. Suddenly all excitement died somewhere. I was completely bored so today I planned to get out of my bed and my room and head towards Sarojini Nagar Market.Once upon a time it used to be my favorite place to hang out.While in college we used to get off on every Thursday and the bus used to drop us at SN Market and we all friends - the batch mates used to find the same place new and equally exciting every Thursday. I used to end up doing shopping like hell. Used to buy whatever I liked. Obviously I still consider SN to have a good range of hippie casual clothes..at the cheapest price.I used to love the colour of the place - colourful clothes,accessories, aggressive selling etc.

So today,after spending yesterday whole day and today till 7pm I decided to visit SN in a hope to feel a little better. I reached SN market.I was there an hour and half. I tried visiting each and every shop but strange I didnt like anything. I didnt find anything exciting.

Its not too many days ago.just 2 years back when I used to find everything so interesting. I was a complete impulse buyer. Now..I ended up buying 5 pink bangles for Rs. 50 and came back. And yah I had one Fanta also. Nothing else I found to buy. Strange.

2005 till 2007 I used to go mad and ended up spending more than 4 hours at the same place,same market. Why this sudden change?These days I cant buy or making buying decision so easily like earlier, I dont remember when was the last time I bought sometime really colourful and wacky. These days I end up buying either a black trouser or some pale formal shirt. Some boring stuff.

Life has changed so much.Those bright colours are fading away, those silly laughter and those excitement have gone somewhere. Earlier I used to wait so eagerly for holiday and planned so many things but now I feel too lazy and demotivated to even go out.

Does the same thing happen with everyone when we go ahead with life?

This is how I spend my valuable Sunday - By doing nothing , by missing my good old days.

Work,Office,freedom etc

From past few weeks I have been seriously thinking about job - my job and overall. Its been 2 years now that I have been working. Lots of questions.thoughts pop up and vanish like bubbles. A mixed feeling of good,bad,sad,irritated,frustrated,proud travel within me.

I still am unable to understand if my expectation are high are I am just ignorant. Everyone who is working spends almost 70% of his / her day at work place,struggling,taking and giving tantrum,digesting boss's or colleague's some harsh words...its so difficult. In the morning you reach office and you dont even settle down and you be prepared to hear someone shouting on you!!How irritating is that. And more over it happens sometime that you work so hard,you work from the core of your hard - you work just not because you have to work but because you love what you do.Yet sometimes it happens you get zero appreciation. And sometime you feel that you are just being used may be because in some area you are little better than someone else.Its all about being utilized without appreciation,its so mechanical.

Somehow we are so used to with the current scenario - we dont raise our voice even if we feel bad,even if we feel that somethin is going wrong. We are actually happy with whatever - we are not quite confident enough of our capabilities. We act like a machine - we act like animal sometime. Even if we feel bad we put the smile and pretend to be so happy and satisfied....how ridiculous! Why cant we be what we want to be?what stops us?

Being highly educated,professionally qualified we still feel we are incompetent...we are made to feel so.We made to feel as low as possible. I strongly disagree with this concept of YES BOSS. I believe everyone has the right to be happy,to say against what he / she feels to be not right, to protect someone else who is being exploited someone. We even after being educated are paid very low, and at the end of the month we still have to think even spending few rupees extra on an ice cream or a pair of shoes or may be a perfume or lipstick. I believe in being a free soul - i want to feel like a princess, i love pampering myself. Also is it necessary to agree with what we dont think is not right or may be do something in the sake of doing! We spend most of our time in our work places so is not it important for the management to do something really creative and motivating rather than keeping the environment dull and unnecessarily heavy?I feel happy people make a happy atmosphere which of course add in a good productivity then why most of the companies believe in being dull?

Why cant we get creative as most of the ad agencies....why cant we have some space to use our mind?Seems gradually the corporate culture is refraining us from actually think beyond, we are somehow are taught to think what we are supposed to think. We can not laugh, we can not wear bright colours, we can not listen to music, we cant we play some game and take a short break? I understand we need to abide by the decorum, still cant we just be a little wacky and not so stereotype.

We actually need some good leaders who actually can motivate people. Imagine, such leaders may bring an age when people will happily go to office and work happily - people will look forward for Monday and Monday mornings wont be BLUE - it will be pink.We will work not because we have to earn our livelihood but because we will really enjoy contributing.

Dont know when such day will come. When top management will be able to actually handle people. When employees will stop feeling bad about the work place and can breath freely. When they will speak up.

WE really need to break though and speak out. We are not slaves any more. We all are independent, educated and have the right to seek our rights.